I thought I’d overcome it all, Denied it, really. Where is one’s blood, one’s faith, one’s God? I’m in the middle. I’ve broken free from my old bonds, I left uninjured. For like a dream our union was: Absurd and hindered. By taking a discursive way, I lied and gambled. I knew I would be asked one day: "Where is your Abel?" In real life, not in a dream, I have their habits. The ghetto genes still live in me Like dead man’s maggots.
© Kirill Tolmachev. Translation, 2024